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Monday was a bad day, but I learned a lot from it.
I registered for classes and didn't get into one I desperately needed.
I was so upset, I literally threw a silent fit in my room by jumping up and down, stomping my feet as a few tears rolled down my eyes. I've been trying to get into COMM 203 since freshman year, and now, "if I don't get in, I can't enter into the professional phase of my major next semester... and ultimately my life will be ruined." (or so my emotional mind was telling me.) For the next hour I sat in front of the computer hoping a seat would open up in any of the COMM classes and trying to figure out how I was going to fix this problem.
Fortunately I had to separate myself from the computer to go to an ASC meeting. As I slumped down the stairs of my apartment, I was greeted by nothing other than a rainbow. Instinct told me to whip out my camera and take a picture, though at that moment, my mood was too sour to appreciate its meaning. So with a closed mind and heart, I managed to sit through the ASC meeting, study for a test, and go to bed; frustrated with God and the fact that He promises He is faithful and makes me wait to see Him prove it.
I'm ashamed to admit how I felt Monday night, it's embarrassing.
For you see, Tuesday afternoon, I logged on to the A&M website, and sure enough, seats had opened up and I was able to get the class I needed. I had worried for nothing. I had doubted God and realized the state of my heart is still based on circumstance rather than on God's goodness.
The rainbow had been a reminder of God's faithfulness and love for me. I rolled my eyes at it. God made Noah wait for decades before the flood came, He made me wait less than 24 hours to get a class I needed.
I feel like Paul in Romans when he rambles about doing the very thing he doesn't want to do and not doing what he wants to do because of sin. I want to put my faith in the Lord, but find my sinful nature causing me to doubt. Life is full of learning experiences, and I'm grateful for the opportunity to grow from them. I am so thankful that our God forgives and His grace covers our disobedient hearts. Anyway, once again, God has proven how good He is and I thought I'd share.
I registered for classes and didn't get into one I desperately needed.
I was so upset, I literally threw a silent fit in my room by jumping up and down, stomping my feet as a few tears rolled down my eyes. I've been trying to get into COMM 203 since freshman year, and now, "if I don't get in, I can't enter into the professional phase of my major next semester... and ultimately my life will be ruined." (or so my emotional mind was telling me.) For the next hour I sat in front of the computer hoping a seat would open up in any of the COMM classes and trying to figure out how I was going to fix this problem.
Fortunately I had to separate myself from the computer to go to an ASC meeting. As I slumped down the stairs of my apartment, I was greeted by nothing other than a rainbow. Instinct told me to whip out my camera and take a picture, though at that moment, my mood was too sour to appreciate its meaning. So with a closed mind and heart, I managed to sit through the ASC meeting, study for a test, and go to bed; frustrated with God and the fact that He promises He is faithful and makes me wait to see Him prove it.
I'm ashamed to admit how I felt Monday night, it's embarrassing.
For you see, Tuesday afternoon, I logged on to the A&M website, and sure enough, seats had opened up and I was able to get the class I needed. I had worried for nothing. I had doubted God and realized the state of my heart is still based on circumstance rather than on God's goodness.
The rainbow had been a reminder of God's faithfulness and love for me. I rolled my eyes at it. God made Noah wait for decades before the flood came, He made me wait less than 24 hours to get a class I needed.
I feel like Paul in Romans when he rambles about doing the very thing he doesn't want to do and not doing what he wants to do because of sin. I want to put my faith in the Lord, but find my sinful nature causing me to doubt. Life is full of learning experiences, and I'm grateful for the opportunity to grow from them. I am so thankful that our God forgives and His grace covers our disobedient hearts. Anyway, once again, God has proven how good He is and I thought I'd share.
Enjoy the rainbow.
-Jessie
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